Trying to not care how people perceive me proves difficult; I led the first quarter of my life wholly concerned with what other people would think of me. Turns out that just made me incredibly depressed with no sense of self. Now here I am, laying myself bare for friends and enemies and strangers alike to read and judge and perceive; life is much better this way.

Welcome to a site that is a dedicated place for whatever the hell I want. 

There’s no real theme here, beyond me writing for the sake of writing, and running with whatever decided to grip my consciousness for the week (month, year, etc.). Most things tend to bridge my empathic tendencies with the analytical way I approach life, making for a unique blend of Myself. This is a space where I will post reflection pieces, some personal journaling, my thoughts on life, maybe a few semi-academic writings, odd theories I may have, pop culture and sports, the occasional rambling of nonsense, politics, poetry if you’re lucky, and literally anything else that pops into my mind of varying length and content. Expect lots of crossover content from the aforementioned list. And run-on sentences. Please feel free to peruse at your leisure, and be warned that most of this may (will) be chaotic, dramatic, hopelessly romantic, full of redundancies, and heavy at times. 

I’ve never run a blog before of any sort, so please know this is a work in progress! The first few posts on here will be pieces I’ve wrote in the past that I’ve recently rediscovered and zhuzhed up a bit, and I wanted them to see the light of day. They may be a bit backlogged and dated, but I want them here! I’m hoping to get more recent/new things out soon and as I take more time to write. 

A big part of what gets me writing is listening to music — my mind has always needed outside stimulation while writing or engaging with things; if I’m left to silence or quiet spaces, it leaves too much room for my brain to wander around and lose track. On that note, once I get really moving on a piece, or into a rhythm, I typically find a certain few tracks that I find speak to the process of that work, helped carry my brain to the right space it needs to be in, or just added something to the piece that I couldn’t conjure myself. I’ll have a handful of track titles and their artists at the bottom of each post, if I want, and feel free to listen or not, but I find it a more enjoyable experience, and I think it’s fun. Music sharing is my love language, so please accept my humble offerings at the end of each posting.

I’m going to attempt to keep regular posting up (we’ll see how that goes) after I get all of my previous works up, and I’m going to try to mostly keep them in their original forms. I want to preserve Past Me somewhere, I think it’s important to have tangible evidence of where I was at certain points in time, to be able to look back and see where I was and where my mind was and where my writing was. I’m not into editing myself to make it more palatable or less raw, or even to save myself some embarrassment.

It may be messy and all over the map, but the underlying tie is everything on these pages is nothing but genuine and sincere. Welcome to my brain!

So bear with me as I navigate all of this, but welcome and enjoy your time, stay as long or as short as you’d like, and feedback is always welcome. Here’s to living and feeling and writing unabashedly (and listening to bangers)!

TRACKS:

CHERIE – Darius, Darianna Everett

I Swear (To God) — Tyler Childers

Take It To The Grave – Alex Amor

Love Me Not – Ravyn Lenae

Feral – Fickle Friends